Currently Playing Rimsky-Korsakov: Scheherazade for orchestra Op35; Capriccio Espagnol Op34 By Nikolay Andreyevich Rimsky-Korsakov, Leonard Bernstein, John Sr. [violinist] Corigliano see related

Goin' back to Kansas tomorrow morning.  YIPPEE!  Talked to Jenna on the phone yesterday...made me even more exciteder.

New Fascination: the life and music of Gustav Mahler.  Look into it sometime.

Also, just finished reading THE DA VINCI CODE by Dan Brown.  READ IT!  It's a mystery/thriller about a symbologist and a cryptologist who get involved in the secret of life of the latter's murdered grandfather, who was a member of a secret society protecting an ancient secret that someone is now trying to steal.  And that ain't the half of it.  If you want to know more, look it up or ask me about it, but it's an AMAZING read, and I use that word sparingly.

Gotta do a resume of my theatre life till now for LITTLE NIGHT MUSIC production next fall.  My almost wrote "INTO THE WOODS" instead.  Whoa!

K.  Bye!  Happy New Year!

__aaron benham

Currently Watching Seabiscuit (Full Screen Edition) By Jeff Bridges, Chris Cooper see related

Fun Christmas!  Made a killing American Eagle-wise.  Got a cookbook.  Good food.  What does this mean?  Back to reality tomorrow (back to the gym).

Mom, Grandma, Michael and I won at Trivial Pursuit tonight.  I made a big stink about being really good at the game.  Fortunately, I didn't lose.

Um, can't think of anything much else.  Tomorrow (today) hopefully going to see either RETURN OF THE KING again or COLD MOUNTAIN.  The one I don't see I'm gonna at AMC 30 in Olathe.  Oh yeah...can ya feel it?

By the way, finished COLD MOUNTAIN the book today.  Excellent.  Sad ending.  I'll get the good quotes and final thoughts on it later today after I've stewed on it some more.

Ok.  Bye!

__aaron benham

Currently Playing This Is Who I Am By Heather Headley see related

AHHHHHHHH!  Ok...

First, my mother had my brother go buy me some Christmas presents today.  That means A) she didn't get them yet, B) she didn't know what to get me so she had my hip brother go get them, and C) she hasn't really asked me what I wanted.  Well, she does ask me, but she never really asks me.  When I talk, she doesn't really listen.  It's the story of my life.

I am so used to opening my mouth and having my words fall on deaf ears that I've just given up.  It's that way with my acting: I don't trust that when I give something weight anyone will understand.  So I hold back.  Here (at home), when I talk, it's not the mumbling that makes people go "huh," it's their dispassion.  No one here cares about anything.  I realized why I hate being here: it's like limbo!  My mother doesn't like it when you go out and do things because then she has to sit at home and worry about anything, so I sit at home all day, eating junk food, watching movies, getting no sun, melting.  Yes, it's my family's fault.  I am such a completely different person outside of this building that I can't blame myself anymore for being bipolar.  It's because I don't do boy things.  I don't play sports, I don't play video games, I don't give a crap about cars, and I don't put myself above other people because I'm a man.  I'm my own person and that's my problem and I'm sick and tired of being penalized because I do things that my mother doesn't feel comfortable with.  I'm sure that if I had a baseball or soccer or basketball practice every day she would love me more, but because I prefer to play my piano and go to play rehearsals she thinks the things are important to me are insignificant and doesn't support me for anything.  She'll willingly sign Michael up for every soccer team in the county but she won't give a crap when I say I want to go out, audition for a show, and do everything for that show by myself.  I've always had to get things done on my own, and why?  It's not because I don't trust anyone...it's because my family has made me loathe to trust anyone, and that's how it is.  No I will not shut up and stop and rethink things so I don't hurt anyones feelings.  It can't always be my fault like everyone says it is and I just realized that.  Yeah, I'm better than a lot of people, and that's how it is.

Watch PIRATES OF THE CARIBBEAN.  Good fuckin' movie.

Bye

__aaron benham

Currently Playing Michael Buble By Michael Buble see related

Ok...I've been away for awhile.  Sorry there, Xanga O' Mine.  But I'm back.  I'll be more attentive, I promise.

My dog, Mack (ahem, MACKngrace, duh) ate a back of Hershey's kisses while I was at the mall Christmas shopping.  I got back, he looked considerably fatter (i.e. gassier).  What a diltard.  And he still wants to eat people food.  Dogs...

Back in the N'ampsha' swing of things since I got back Thursday.  That doesn't really mean much.  For me, being here just means finding interesting things to keep me...interested and not sitting around too much and eating too much.  Yeah.

Check out some new CDs I got today.  Michael Buble and Heather Headley's debut CDs.  They've been out for awhile, but I just got them today so they're new for me.  They're bitchin!

Merry Christmas, y'all!

__aaron benham

Currently Watching Sex and the City - The Complete Third Season By Sarah Jessica Parker, Kim Cattrall see related

Tis the end of the year, and I feel rounded.

KaPo and I just saw RETURN OF THE KING.  I feel cleansed after seeing it.  I feel proud.  Proud of Elijah Wood and Sean Astin and Viggo Mortensen and all of them.  It all came to such a fulfilling end--fulfilling visually, emotionally, cinematically, thematically, everything.  Such a gorgeous film.  I'll leave words right here as they are.

Going home today.  Gonna see the pups.  Gotta get some Dog Bling.  Catchya later!

__aaron benham